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| and fake the way I hold you...as you fall for empty word I say... |
[22 Dec 2006|03:07am] |
so yeah...life seems to get more complicated by the minute, by the hour,whatever. Im tired of being with just me, myself and I, what about me and a significate other. huh!
Im a very difficult person who cannot descide on life or my own sanity!
If only there were such easy resolutions to life..if only if life were like puzzle pieces that even a 5 year old can put together. But unfortunately its not like that at all.
*Michelle speaking ramdom ness*
love is a word that was invited by some jackass that describe some form of feeling that can be express in many ways
basically love your parents, love your job, love your favorite sweater, blanket etc.
registuring that through the mind and then letting hit the pit of your stomach is the best feeling ever.
the problem is why dont I feel such emotion?
consider this poor soul numb,tired.....
AS weird as this may sound, I belive Mr. right was invented by tom cruise.
and why praytell do I say this?
well Tom cruise makes bullshit (some of his movies) belives in bullshit(scientology) so yeah he invented Mr. right(aka bullshit)!!!! (dont mean to offend anyone)
Im sorry for those who Ive hurt in the past, but those who I have hurt, probally hurt me 10 times harder.
and those who didnt deserve it well....you probally didnt fit or complete me.
I await the future avents that are about to take place,but deep down Inside Im scared.
of either resting my life or not being content with it.
as 2006 ends I hope thats this LOVE cruse comes to an end as the year does too
More alcohol please bartender
nite<3
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| so okay michelle does not know shit |
[25 Jun 2006|03:50am] |
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so much shit is going through my mind and i dont know where to begin...i just know ill have to make a tough decision....im scared but i shouldnt be scared of life
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| Giggy giggy goo! a fuckin update |
[12 May 2006|12:47pm] |
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SO.....I havent updated this shit in ages but yeah I think i was too busy my spacin it and totally forgot my journal hahah gay! but anyways ive been pretty well, Life seems to be going pretty well for myself and really dont have anything to complain about expect for my crazy parents.GAH! same old shit man. Sometime in august I plan on moving to modesto and possibly getting a roomie. I have been working at walgreens now since october and ive grown used to the stress and work, but unfortunately not my boss...fuckin asshole i cant wait to transfer.
Thursday I went to Las vegas with my sister and her friends....best fuckin Idea ever! I hella wanna go back soon. We danced and how do say "went clubbin" all night long and I wasnt sober till I got home hahaha. Anyone wanna plan a trip there soon????
Alot has changed for my friends and I and its actually good. Ive noticed we have all grown on so many different levels....and figuring out who you really are. Life lessons are also good. Althought in some cases they may not seem like the best situation to be in, they acutually turn out to be the best lessons learned. Call me crazy but its true.
I care for my friends dearly and some I wish to see more often....to those I still havent forgotten you =)
Life in general is amazing. I have so much love to offer and I cant wait to share that with someone. I think I ready to settle with "someone" but for some reason it just doesnt come out. Maybe ill just give it a little more time, but if they were to ask I would probaly say yeah.***nervous face*** Although I enjoy the single, party life, its kinda starting to die down a bit.
but yeah.........................
Im content
Im happy
I love you all<3
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[04 Sep 2005|11:27am] |
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so yeah i havent been online lately...many of u probaly thought i was dead haha but yeah i moved back home everything is okay but kinda eh..but whateva. I kept busy at work and been working a lot of hours lately and finally saved up the right amount of money and got me a fuckin 2006 toyota corolla...Yippie! :)
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| My shadow is the only one that sits beside me....... |
[03 Jun 2005|04:45pm] |
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So my not so intelligent mother took back my dad and moved back home. Lame! I forbid myself to go back home to the same thing and the same feelings, yeah my mom says hes changing but I doubt that would ever happen... so now i live with my cousins in merced. I was staying at my Grandmas house but she really didnt want me there which is kinda fucked up seeing that my sister lived there for 6 years.
Im supporting myself now since my mom abandoned my ass. Im paying for the rest of my school and saving for a car, plus I pay rent, the only thing good about rent is that its only 100 bucks. I lucked out on that part. another thing I lucked out on, a ride to work.
Another thing, boys suck, but I dont wanna get into that shit right now.
fathers day is comming up and I havent talked or seen my dad for 2 1/2 months.....thats what happens when your dad is on crystal meth and other drugs and beats the shit outta you and pushes you away. I cant even have a conversation with my mom anymore cuz shes a fuckin air head. Why is it that I have to be the adult in situations like this. I try to talk to my mom but all she can do is cry, thats her excuse for everything.Shes the one that said she puts her kids before anything....but once again....a another lie. Yeah I may sound like Im only thinking about myself, but I have to do that now since Im on my own. My parents were able to help my brother and sister get a car. My other family members were willing to help them when they were in need...but once again not
me....WTF is wrong with me! I got screwed over. I think Its only my moms side thats not really found of me, just because im different(apprearance) and outspoken.
Life is unfair.
I hate it, but I guess you gotta suck it up
latest update Wrtten my Michelle Elias
P.S If u wanna reach me call my cell. leave a message if you dont have it
<3
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[15 May 2005|12:29am] |
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So yeah I decided to update this shit and talk about the little things that have been going on in my life lately.
My sister and I took my little cuz to see Maroon 5. They put on a good show and i have to say they are better live....too bad i missed the fuckin FAINT!!! GAH! but the bright side is that my hetero lifemate aka anita brought me back a Tee :) YAY!
I been talking to this guy lately and Im glad to say im no longer being bamboozuled.hahah! Hes actually attempting to talk me now. I guess his friends and family like me so yeah thats cool beans for me....but sometimes I get really shy.....which is very odd cuz im not a shy person at all.
I dunno whats gonna happen or what. I know Ive said dozens of times that I wasnt sure if I wanted to be with someone and my feelings towards that have not changed. Maybe it should...who knows. All I can really say is that Im just gonna go with the flow and see where it goes from there.
Anyhoo...anita and I went to Nenos house and saw Fonzie spin. I got to hang out with Nora, Iris,Neno,Amarro,Lupey and of course Fonzie! I missed them dearly and it put a smile on my face to see all of them again.
so yeah thats all that is new lately. and hanging out with anita and the guys...who always put a smile on my face as well
Nite<3
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| dearest you.....an update |
[23 Apr 2005|02:09am] |
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I havent update for quite sometime now...for one I moved and havent been able to go online and such. So right now im at anitas updating and what not. So here I go.
Ive moved to my grandmas and the reason for it..well it finally happend....my parents are divorcing and my mom and I moved to my grannys. I mean I love my dad and shit but hes an asshole and treats my mom like shit and has a drug problem! But my parents are both in the wrong, and hearing some rumors that I possibly might have a half sister my age. and did i mention my rabbit aka Mr preckles died too of old age...(sigh)
a lot of shit has falling to shit but yeah what can u do about it
ugh!....what else do i have to say.....oh yeah
I also met a nice boy...but i dunno if im ready to start seeing someone or if i even have time to do so.
a lot of emotions have been running through my mind and its driving me insane. the only positive thing i have to really say about myself right now is that I finished my pharmacy course and Im officially a certified pharmacy tech.
At least I have one good thing to say about my life
I dunno when ill get my computer back and running but ill try to update when i can tho
Goodnight <3
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| Im ready to fuckin hulk out |
[26 Mar 2005|09:12pm] |
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Once again I was bamboozuled (meaning flaked) by the bamboozuler (aka) my supposive date....so I thought I wasnt gonna do anything on friday night, But I happen to bump into samira right after class and we went out to eat with her cuz and took pictures at the walmart parking lot and being fuckin nerds haha. But yeah anyhoo my friday night tured out okay...except my tummy couldnt handle panda express....BLAH!
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| Happy St. Patty's Day! |
[18 Mar 2005|03:44am] |
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Anita and I went to see henry's band play tonight at the mainzer. It was pretty cool, good crowd too. Saving daylight was also playing as well. They might play for this years warped tour too. But yeah after the show anita and I went to eat at in and out and they were there. All these little groupie girls were all freakin them out, it was pretty funny, they thought we were the only normals ones there, haha. So we conversated for awhile and they asked us about the area and other things as well, and I must say that they are the nicest guys ever! I hope they get on warped tour and I wish them the best.
P.S...james (the singer was hot) but shhh!!!! :P
And I was also in a good mood because Henry did his priate dance aaaahahaha! funny shit
well Im off to bed
Night <3
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[05 Mar 2005|03:37am] |
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My class got cancelled for the night so I went to the mall for a bit and then met up with Nora, Lupey, Fonzie and his girlfriend Nikki and the rest of the crew. We went to some break dancin competition and saw hella people get down on the dance floor. Other than that it was pretty cool. Like fire played next door as well.
speaking of that band, tomorrow night theyre playing, Nora wants to come too, but I dunno if ill get outta work on time for that...hopefully. I also think fonzie knows about some party that his friend is throwing. I just know theres plenty to do tomorrow night.
Oh yeah and a boy asked for my number..tee hee
and nora said I had a colgate smile..haha!
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[03 Mar 2005|03:25am] |
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I took My final exam for anatomy and Im happy to announce that I got an 87%. Not just on this exam, but in the class overall. So Im pretty stoked that I passed. All thats left to be taken care of is my math and perscription reading. Not to mention Ill be done in less than 2 months now. YES!
After class I met up with Anita at the Mainzer. XIU XIU (I think thats how u spell it) was fuckin amazing tonight. Very Different and artistic. Still amazed! I kinda missed the first band but the second band was also good.
Tomorrow Built Like Alaska is playing at the mainzer as well. Starts at 8ish. Who wants to go?
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[01 Mar 2005|12:54am] |
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My sister purchased some tickets for the honda civic tour...and she got one for me. How nice of her. Ill be going to that show in fresno in May. Maroon 5 is headlining and playing along on that tour is Phantom planet, the donnas, and the thrills.I dunno who else is playing. I really dont care for the Donnas, but the rest seem pretty cool. Its gonna be different compared to all the other concerts Ive been to, but yeah still sounds like fun.
School is going well...just 2 more months to go and Ill be done. Damn
I forgot what else I was gonna say but I totally forgot...I also need to study.
Short entry but I got shit to do
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[18 Feb 2005|05:21am] |
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I'm foolish......
I hate life....
I hate being hurt in countless ways.....
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[17 Feb 2005|02:31am] |
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Happy B-Day Shaye!!!!!
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[14 Feb 2005|02:09am] |
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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!
Will you be my valentine livejournal friends?
<3
P.S Im not buying you a gift cuz Im a cheap Mexican hahahah!
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[14 Feb 2005|01:42am] |
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I went solo to the Hooka friday night, but I didnt care cuz I was dancin my little legs off. Later on that night after fonzie spinned, Anita and the guys came and hung out with me and my friends. It was fun and I was very hyper.
and that hyperness continued saturday night as well. A lot of people were at some party in turlock, I didnt know anyone there tho.After that I took Tony and Adam home and we sang old skool Sugar Ray on the way to Hilmar =P
Today is Valentines day and for muah...well I dont have one...I guess you can say I saved a few bucks ha!
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[11 Feb 2005|01:27am] |
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Will she.....
will this girl ever be loved?
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[10 Feb 2005|12:44am] |
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Im trying to start a healty eating habbit so far so good. I eat multi grain cherrios for breakfast and later on eat some fruit. Today I had some jamba juice..YUM! canberry craze is my fav! I bumped into some people from my class, and chatted for a bit. Then I stopped by Tacos and beer to say hi to tony and got to look at his new tat. I like it a lot *Thumbs up* I headed to class right after that and studied some more for my test. Some words on that test were kinda confusing, so I got a high C on it. I mean its not bad, I just want higher than that tho.=[ blah! I also need my hair trimed...Im starting to kinda form a mullet. yuk!
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and were waiting for something that will never come.....
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[06 Feb 2005|01:43am] |
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I didnt party this weekend...what a surpize, it even shocked my mommmy =P
On friday night I was gonna go to the hooka, but Instead I went to visit and chill with Nora and see what shes been up to. Her dad got kinda sick, but Im glad to hear that hes doing much better. It was fun just hanging out and chit chatting...making fun of hoochie mammas LOL!
Tonight Im studying like a good girl and hanging out at my casa. I realized that Mr. Preckles (My bunny) is growing rapidly and I think Im gonna put him on Doctor Phils ultimate weight loss challenge.
Im such a nerd
<3 Night
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